Kevin Daniel Bartlett

2008 - 2008
LocationLondon
Age0
Cause of DeathMiscarriage
Date of Birth04/11/2008
Date of Death04/11/2008
Visitors759 since 06/01/2009
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My beautiful TINY little angel Kevin-Daniel was born on the 04 November 2008 at 0315am weighing
0.24kgs. He made a rather unexpected arrival at 20wks gestation far too early for his tiny little
body to survive.
The 04 Nov was one of the sadest yet most proudest day of mine and his daddys lives. Our little boy
was so tiny but so perfectely formed with ten tiny little fingers and ten tiny little toes -
footballing was in his blood and he would have been another Rooney, but better looking of course, in
years to come. He didnt have much hair as it was just starting to grow but he did have thin wispy
eyebrow hair:) He would have had jet black hair like his mummy and daddy, why didnt god give him a
chance to develop fully? why? why my baby, why my special little angel, why? god I hate you so much!
he was my boy, my little boy! my pride and joy! MY BABY! how could you take my baby yet leave his
mummy, his sad mummy behind? I have lost all faith! god I pray thay you bring me back safely and
you place my beloved angels in my arms safely. Until then I will hold you accountable for the hurt
I feel, for the aching I have in my arms. I hate you god, god how I hate you!

His skin so soft and so fragile. My little boy was perfect in every way yet his tiny lungs were
replaced with big angel wings. Why god why did you have to pick my little boy? why? I will never
forgive god for taking my little boy from me, all he needed was his mummy. Why me? why my little
angel? why god why? I hate you lord I hate you for claiming my special angel as your own! he was
MINE a product of mine and his fathers love. I will never forgive you for taking him from me!
NEVER!!! He is my angel not yours, how could you? how could you leave his mummy here, his mummy
empty. Please, please bring me back to my angel, please give me some peace. Please carry baby
Kevin-Daniel's mummy home. Home to be with her very own pure little angel, her angel who will show
her the way. Her heart her soul.

The moment I gave birth to my angel I just knew he was special and as much as I wanted and needed
him I knew that his place was in heaven. My little one spent a brief time with his mummy and daddy
and died peacefully in the arms of his mummy. Letting him go, giving him up to god was the most
hardest thing we would ever have to do. I wanted to keep him warm and safe forever but each passing
moment I could feel him slipping away from me. My darling fought so hard to have the brief 30
minutes he had with his mummy and daddy. My only regret is that I never got to look into the eyes
of my child. My perfect little boy just didnt have the strength to open his eyes.

Our little Kevin-Daniel was our much longed for baby and although I had reservations about my
maternal instincts they kicked in instinctively and now I know I am a special mummy to a very
special angel baby and always will be.

I wish that I could have had a lifetime with my angel. It kills me to know that I will never get to
see his perfect little face mature into a beautiful young man; to see his first smile, take his
first step; see his first tooth; celebrate his birthday's and of course quiz his first girlfriends:)
I am proud to have had Kevin-Daniel as my firstborn and would not change or erase that moment from
my past for any healthy happy baby you could offer in return. It has made me the person I am today
for better or worse. I now have my own personal guardian angel watching over me and I will remain
strong. My little boy was a fighter (his mummys little soilder). His mummy is a fighter too! As
much as she aches to be near him, she knows for now her place is here, here on this cruel, greed
filled world.

People often find it impossible to know what to say and it so often feels that people want to move
on and forget. I want this page to reflect the impact my darling little boy made. Although his
time on earth was so cruelly cut short he built bridges between families and brought his mummy and
daddy closer than they have ever been. Please remember my little boy, please let me continue to
talk about him and please don't expect me to ever forget him or expect the old person I once was to
return for she has gone forever.

To our darling little angel your mummy and daddy think about you every day and miss you so very much
it hurts. We spent such a short time together but you blessed our lives in so many ways, it's hard
to imagine life without you. For now our time is here but I promise you one day mummy will give you
the biggest hug of all and will hold you and never ever let you go. All the plans me and daddy made
for you, all our dreams so cruelly cut short. You will always be our precious firstborn son and
will remain in our hearts for always. I hope you are being a good little angel and playing nicely
with all the other special little babies. Mummy and daddy will see you again and next time I
promise it will be for keeps. Until then fly high my sweetheart.

Missed so dearly by: Mummy and Daddy, Grandma Jayne, Grandpa Sid, Grandma Lynda and Grandpa George.
Cousins Tasha, Adrianna, Bethany, Aimmee and little pebbles - Sophia. Uncles Paul, Dave, Chris.
Aunties Donna, Marie, Joanne and finally very special Auntie Michelle.

Rest peacefully my little Bam Bam xxxx




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A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith

I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.

You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.

God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).

Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.

There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.

I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings.

But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.

With love from your little Angel xxx

Joanne Mitchell Wednesday evening

Born Still - by Unknown Author

Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?

Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting her sleepy head?

Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.

Do you know the heartache
Knowing she's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.

Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?

Unfortunately we do!

Joanne Mitchell Wednesday evening

To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne

How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?

You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.

I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.

I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.

I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.

I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.

You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one.

X X

Joanne Mitchell Wednesday evening

♥ღ♥ I Believe ♥ღ♥
I believe that the sun shines after the rain
I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain
I believe in not doing things the easy way
I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay
♥ღ♥
I believe in a second chance
I believe in a life long romance
I believe there is life after death
And standing up to a life of mess
♥ღ♥
I believe in love at first sight
I believe that revenge isn’t right
I believe that first impressions last
And there is nothing better then a good laugh
♥ღ♥
I believe that dreams do come true
I believe there's destiny for me and you
I believe that good things come to those who wait
I believe love never arrives too late
♥ღ♥
I believe something good comes from something bad
I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad
I believe everyone has a guardian angel
And the good you do will be rewarded well
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I believe sometimes there is no explanation
I believe money can't buy people's affection
I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone
I believe a new day arrives with every dawn
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I believe a smile can be contagious
I believe in being very outrageous
I believe in living with no regrets
I believe that life is as good as it gets
♥ღ♥
I believe that God watches over us
I believe the little things are worth the fuss
I believe you have each friend for a reason
I believe you will get punished for treason
♥ღ♥
I believe that what comes first is family
I believe we should all live in harmony
I believe in making the most of a beautiful day
And it's not the end until everything's okay
♥ღ♥
I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder
I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder
I believe every experience teaches you a lesson
And nothing cures better then a drinking session
♥ღ♥
I believe everyone has one true love
I believe sometimes we need a little shove
I believe the whole world is a stage
I believe we only get better with age
♥ღ♥
I believe that to learn you have to live
I believe that to love someone you have to give
I believe one moment can change your life
And there's still help when you’re in strife
♥ღ♥
I believe everyone has one true friend
I believe love helps a broken heart mend
I believe in the power of a song
And things will change before too long
♥ღ♥
I believe living is the best experience
I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense
I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave
And when they’re gone all you can do is breath
♥ღ♥
I believe to always look on the bright side
I believe that life is just one big ride
I believe when I die people will grieve
But it’s ok because I believe…

Unknown

Phyllis Frazier Harris Wednesday afternoon

Mummy is sending you a big kiss xxxxx.

I hope you are playing nicely my sweetheart x

Danielle Barnfield (Mummy) May 4, 2009

16TH JANUARY 2009

★ ★ Tiny stars, shining bright, it's time for me to say 'Goodnight.' So, close your eyes, and snuggle up tight, I'm wishing you sweet dreams tonight. ★ ★
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┊   ┊┊   ★ Sweet ♥ Dreams ♥ ★ Darling ★
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┊   ★ God Bless.

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★ ★ LOVE JUDE.X ★ ★

Jude Swaddle January 16, 2009

Thinking of You xx

Thinking of you xx

A Note from heaven

Don't worry for me loved one, i am safe up here
I have no pain any more, but you have it is clear
I know your heart is broken, for me you must not weep
I am with you always, but in the after life i sleep

In the day light i am with you, i bring the morning sun
To melt away your sadness, until the dark night comes
At this time i am with you also, shining o so bright
I am the brightest star you see in the sky each and every night

So don't worry for me loved one, in life i loved you so
And i am oh so sorry that it was my time to go
I love you still and always will, we really did not part
my memories are always with you deep inside your heart xxx

Gemma Sterriker January 12, 2009

'Sometimes' by Frank Brown

Sometimes, when the sun goes down,
it seems it will never rise..... but it will

Sometimes, when you feel alone,
it seems your heart will break in two.... but it won't

And sometimes, it seems its hardly worth carrying on.... but it is

For sometimes, when the sun goes down,
it seems like it will never rise again,
but it does.

Danielle Barnfield (Mummy) January 10, 2009

Mummys rant to her little boy

Hello there my little sweetheart, its mummy here. Have you been having fun playing up there high in the sky? missing you my little boy. Mummy has been finding it so very hard lately these last few days have been unbearable and i wish i was there holding your little hand, comfortating you as you sleep.
Please send mummy lots of angels kisses to give her strength.
Mummy had more tests done today - silly doctors :) funny how they are trying so hard to save your mums sanity but they never did very much to bring you to me safely.

Please my darling, please whisper to the big angel up there please ask him to guide your mummy through her darkest hours. Where can i find the will to go on now you have gone.

Most people dream of angels, i was blessed to have held one for a short time.

Sending you big kisses and mummys heavy heart.

Night night darling x

Danielle Barnfield (Mummy) January 9, 2009

For you Kevin xxx xxx

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Lots of love Jo, Shaun, Joshua and Angel Reddin xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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